First Thought

Well, this is me. It's my first time I seriously blogging. I felt that now is the perfect time to blog. I've always thought of blogging and this time I'm definitely gonna start blogging. As you can see, for my introduction, that's my picture there when I was in form 4. Yeah, I missed those days. It's the year where I actually learned many important things in my life. One of it is UNITY. "All for one, one for all". I still keep hold of UNITY up till today. I experienced many things in the year 2006. From bad to good. I'm having the worst financial ever on that year but I also learnt on that year that Friendship is more valuable than money. I always knew that money is not everything. It's just that on that year, something happened to me that makes that statement very strong. In that year, me and my friends always hung out in McDonalds at Masjid Jamek. We looked like a rich kid with high standards. The fact is, we went there just to buy Sundae cone and chat until 5pm or 6pm. Haha, it tickles me every time I remember it. I really miss my form 4 era. I wish I could go back and spend more time with my friends back then. Now, I can only pray for their success and all the best to them in life. You guys should know one thing, maybe we don't see each other often like before or we lost contact to each other but I'll never ever and forever forget you guys. You know who you are. I don't need to mention your names as I believe if we're truly friends to each other, we actually feel deep inside that we miss each other. We are BROTHERS for LIFE okay?







Now, this is my band. Our name is [0]. Weird isn't it? There's a story behind the name. I leave it to the other band members if they want to reveal it or not. The line up of our band is Isma "Matallek" Danial (Drummer), Harith "Burger" Nizar (Guitarist), Muhammad Rafiq (Bassist) and Syafiq Rhani (Guitarist). We start our first jam in late 2006. We never really gel together that time but after serious practise and hardworking, we can actually play 2 full cover songs. From then on, we played many cover songs. We performed on our school Interact Club International Understanding Day 2007 and our school carnival in the same year. We don't really care if people hate us or like us on that day because we gave our best shot on those days and it's really satisfying for us. What I'm actually proud of [0] is that we performed better if it's a last minute call up by the organizer. Hahaha! It's our nature. Currently, all of us are busy with our life mostly because of studies. It's been a long time since we jam together. I really miss you guys. All the best!!! Hope we will be even better next time and actually continue from where we left of...






I don't know what to feel for 2007. The lowest point in my life that time was when I lost my grandfather "Mat Noh". He's one of the best grandfather ever. He always treated me nicely. Always gave me lots of advice. He led by example. He's my role model. I remember he even tried to plant a tree when his leg was very badly hurt that time. He can barely walked but he still insist on planting the tree. His determination of finishing on what he had started really caught my eyes. I admire his willing to live and determination on finishing the things that he had started. In May, he was sent to Hospital Kuala Lumpur because of his illness. He can't breathe properly. I went to visit him many times during that month. Yeah, he still determined to stay alive. According to the doctor, he told my dad that "Semua bergantung kepada ayah awak sekarang. Jika dia mahu hidup, dia akan berjuang untuk meneruskan kehidupan dia. Jika tidak...(sambil menggelengkan kepala)". All of us were down that time. But not for my grandpa. He still went for physiotherapy to train his legs so that he can walk back as normal. I'm really happy to know he still wanna live. 3 months past and there goes my grandpa. I was really sad that time. I couldn't control my feelings. Why does he have to go before Hari Raya Aidilfitri? He even tried to stay alive by walking around here and there just to train his legs. I still remember the date he died. It was on 29th of August 2007. It was my last day of spm trial and the worst thing that happened was it's physics paper. I can't do a single thing as my mind went flying. I couldn't thing of anything else. Then, I went back to Raub straight away after my paper. I went back with my brother as my dad, mum and sister went there the day before. When I arrived there, I didn't get a chance to see my grandfather's face for the last time as they've covered the face of my grandpa with "kain kapan" and were ready to put the body inside the coffin. That time, I saw the place where my grandpa planted the tree. Guess what, it grows. It makes me smiled for a while there. I know that god loves him much more than I do. That's why god took him away from me. But it's never really like that. There's a reason why god took him. I'm not a god to demand god to place my grandpa in a better place. What I can do is to just pray to god to forgive whatever sins that has been done by my grandpa and pray for my grandpa to be placed in a good place up there...