A Complicated Bond

Hi everyone. I'm back!!! No need to be excited here because I know that I'm no one... Ok, enough of that crap. Haha.. Just wanna release my stress there. Anyway, here I am today, 22nd December 2009, still have no life after THE GREAT BATTLE with STPM! Can someone tell me what should I do with my life now? I guess expressing my feelings in this blog is not a bad idea after all. I have a story here. A story that circles around 4 friends. It's a true story. Yeah, u guessed it.. It's about me. It happened this year. Once, I admire and adore this one girl. She took care of me. She's there for me when i needed someone to comfort me. She's not like the other girls that I know of. She's different. She's special to me because she's really the caring type of a person and more special because she actually cares about me. I actually bond with her quite well until one day, it's all fallen apart. It's because of there's another two characters suddenly joined this bond of us. They acted as if they know everything about us. They thought that they were the match makers. They thought they can fix us together. They started to say this and that about us. They were like a spy at one time. I know that they actually wanna help us but they got it wrong that time. And because of that, my relationship with the girl slowly drift away. It's because the both of us can't accept the fact that someone else trying to make us be a couple. We want it to happen within our HEART. We only want sincerity from each other. Not because of someone else in the party trying to gel us together. In the end, this is what happen. I'm lonely. I never contact her anymore. I don't even know what she's doing now in her life and most of all, I don't know what's her feelings towards me and this situation that suddenly appeared up from nowhere. Thanks guys! Thank to the both of you! I do believe in repentance. I hope that you guys will learn from your mistakes and succeed in your life. Don't ever-ever be busybody again. It will hurt yourself in the future and not enough with that, you might hurt others too. I hope you guys heed to my advice and I hope that god will actually open your eyes and your heart. Everything starts form the heart. Not mouth, nose, hand, leg, head or whatever part of your body. Despite all of this, I know that I have to continue my life as normal people do. I don't have any grudge against you guys. Just remember to take good care of others feelings. Though you shall not receive the same treatment, but the reward will pay off big time. I'm sorry to let out my feelings this way because I just want everyone to know that we as a human being should not interfere with others private life. It is never too late for repentance. I will say it again one more time, everything starts from the bottom of YOUR HEART. I'm thankful that I have great friends who always pick me up when I was down. Thank you so much guys. =)


Does my face expression down here tells you my feelings right now? Up to you to decide...